"I can taste the day,
Savour night,
Scream your dreams as you dare to fight!
My eyes are filled with curiosity,
You think that you have power over me!
In this life, there's no room for you and me!
So turn away or face this day with me!"
- The chorus to "With Me" from Sonic and the Black Knight (yes, I know that game is trash)
As I write this, I have begun undertaking something that I should have done long ago. For the past 8 or so months, I have been plagued by a nightmare. A nightmare of my own past and of my own inner fears. That, with time, I would succumb to a beast that is my own self.
To those of you who do not understand, there's a big reason as to why I do not discuss my past. My life prior to high school or college. Or rather, a life that is no longer mine. Yet, despite how simple and unthreatening as it may be, it continues to haunt me. And it recently took form.
I will spare most of you the details but know that, through a series of events, I begun having nightmares and greatly fearing a particular creature and the symbol that it may bear. To put it simply, I perceived the beast to be a nightmare I had been escaping my whole life. A broken and twisted creature of hatred and of a broken spirit. A creature that I wished not to become.
Months and months on end, its name and figure kept lurking in my mind. Teasing me, haunting me, playing with me. If I didn't do something, there would likely be a chance that I would succumb to it or I would even break under its foreboding might. So I fled from it. I tried my hardest to blot it out or flee from it. But no matter what, the creature continued its haunt. How can one run away from something that is deeply rooted in your mind? To put it simply, you cannot. No matter how hard you may try, one cannot simply forget these things.
This month, I decided enough was enough. Now on anti-depressants and fighting to overcome my mental issues, I decided to strike back at the one thing that has been haunting me. It was time to finally put an end to the madness. I needed to confront this beast. And that is what I have begun doing.
If I seem shaken or possibly brimming with vigour, you'll likely know why.
To those of reading, I must ask something of you. Is there something that you greatly fear? Is it possible that you too are running away from something that you feared?
Please. Don't try to run away. Be strong and try to fight it. Confront it. Get up in its face and show that you are not afraid of it anymore, that you will not stand for it. It doesn't matter what it may be. Just know that you'll likely feel a lot better knowing that you've overcome your nightmares rather than just fleeing from them. Trust me, they're not as bad as they seem.
Savour night,
Scream your dreams as you dare to fight!
My eyes are filled with curiosity,
You think that you have power over me!
In this life, there's no room for you and me!
So turn away or face this day with me!"
- The chorus to "With Me" from Sonic and the Black Knight (yes, I know that game is trash)
As I write this, I have begun undertaking something that I should have done long ago. For the past 8 or so months, I have been plagued by a nightmare. A nightmare of my own past and of my own inner fears. That, with time, I would succumb to a beast that is my own self.
To those of you who do not understand, there's a big reason as to why I do not discuss my past. My life prior to high school or college. Or rather, a life that is no longer mine. Yet, despite how simple and unthreatening as it may be, it continues to haunt me. And it recently took form.
I will spare most of you the details but know that, through a series of events, I begun having nightmares and greatly fearing a particular creature and the symbol that it may bear. To put it simply, I perceived the beast to be a nightmare I had been escaping my whole life. A broken and twisted creature of hatred and of a broken spirit. A creature that I wished not to become.
Months and months on end, its name and figure kept lurking in my mind. Teasing me, haunting me, playing with me. If I didn't do something, there would likely be a chance that I would succumb to it or I would even break under its foreboding might. So I fled from it. I tried my hardest to blot it out or flee from it. But no matter what, the creature continued its haunt. How can one run away from something that is deeply rooted in your mind? To put it simply, you cannot. No matter how hard you may try, one cannot simply forget these things.
This month, I decided enough was enough. Now on anti-depressants and fighting to overcome my mental issues, I decided to strike back at the one thing that has been haunting me. It was time to finally put an end to the madness. I needed to confront this beast. And that is what I have begun doing.
If I seem shaken or possibly brimming with vigour, you'll likely know why.
To those of reading, I must ask something of you. Is there something that you greatly fear? Is it possible that you too are running away from something that you feared?
Please. Don't try to run away. Be strong and try to fight it. Confront it. Get up in its face and show that you are not afraid of it anymore, that you will not stand for it. It doesn't matter what it may be. Just know that you'll likely feel a lot better knowing that you've overcome your nightmares rather than just fleeing from them. Trust me, they're not as bad as they seem.
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