[OOC Board] - All the World's a Game

Originally posted by Kristia
back from psychiatric leave,

im emotionally tired and desire to break a wall because of stress

is that so~?

well if yer going to, might as well do it in style.
Besides there's no problem a chainsaw can't fix.

I actually put a hole in my wall.

Wanna know how?

I leaned up against the wall on my fingertips and my thumb broke the drywall. These are some cheap walls.:p

Is drywall supposed to be a weak building material?

its just that the doctors hammer the most emotional nails..

Thats why Im stressed

Ahhh.

I've had that happen before.

It may hurt now, but in the end, it's only to break through the psychological shell and help bring positive change.

I hope you feel better soon.

Ah. Emotional stress is harsh, especially when it builds up over a period of three months and then finally blows up and leaves an emotional crater for the following months. I'm still a bit broken, but not that badly. Only when I think about it.

Im atleast not taking the easy method. Pills

I have survived my way with my pandora box of mind by natural methods. Determination

But nooo, the doctor says "It would be better to take the drug, it will be fast"

I have seen other patients becoming like neutral drones, just following what others tell them in a white effing room

If hopsital rooms are bad, psychiatric rooms are worse

@Kristia

There are actually a couple of ways to deal with psychological disorders and the like.

I've been on medication and found that it does wonders when it comes to stabilizing you, but it doesn't help fix the problem. It only eases it.

The Psychiatrists and Psychologists can do everything in the book, but in the end, the patient is the one that has to take those steps to recovery. The professionals are only there to give you the tools and the extra perception to do so.

For me, there's still the chronic depression, but I keep that in check by going to the gym. It releases endorphins, which counteract depression. In a way, it's still taking medication, but it's using your body's natural pharmacy.:p




@Wonder

This may be a sensitive topic, but what happened?

You guys are reminding me of how I felt getting outta highschool, having to move from VA to MI, and then preparing to college.
Went to the doctors for immunization, was all up beat, got the shots, then I had like a brown-out (almost fainted.)
Looking back its hilarious cause it happened like this: "Ok let's get these shots over with...oh I have to pick which arm gets the 2 shots and which one gets the 3rd? Alright then... *gets the shots* Ok then *starts to feel faint* Whoah...Duuude...that can't be right....*lays down* UUuuuuaaaaaaa...ugh that's trippy...."

Oh i do deal with my emotional surges and related and I know the side effects of the medicines, but damn..

Im overcoming my problems, but some are stick permanently, like scars, they heal, but never let go.

Heck I even have acted as a 12 years old me when I have had an emotional surge, or thats what my gf has explained when I regain my own self

@Cucoo

That actually reminds me of the time my sister tried to scare my brother and I at the immunization clinic.

She kept saying, "Ooooo~ It's gonna hurt!~"

My brother and I got through it with minimal problems. My sister on the other hand...

She kept freaking out about the needles. Instead of taking 30 seconds for the shots, it took her 3 minutes. I'm such a bad person for laughing!:p




There was another time when I had to get blood drwan from a doctor with very shaky hands. I had to get stuck 5 TIMES before he finally hit the vein! XD





@Kristia

Yep.

It's very hard to let go. In fact, I get angry just thinking about my childhood.

That being said, I believe that I never truly lived until now, until my childhood ended.

For me, I stopped looking at the scars as damage done to me and as me becoming stronger from them, proof that I survived the worst parts of my life.