Starshine Resort | Skating Rink
When Yukari asked her question, it seemed almost as if John had not registered the question, but after half a second, a rather complex set of emotions seemed to spread across his face as he looked down at the small cup of coca in his hands, like confusion mixed with uncertainty, and not fear, but an emotion that seemed like apprehension. It was not entirely known how John felt about the question, and it seemed almost as if Yukari had asked him some extremely complicated question, like what the meaning of life was and that he was seriously thinking of an answer. John looked at Yukari with a rather thoughtful expression, but it seemed that his mind was still digesting her question.
"I...", John trailed before becoming silent for another moment. It looked like he wanted to say something to her, but that he couldn't find the words he wanted to say. In truth, it wasn't that he didn't want to have a child. He was open to the idea, but was he good enough to be a good father? John looked away for another moment as he struggled to find the right words to say, as he tried to process the emotions he currently felt. It felt so strange for him that he could not find anything to say, and he had never really even given being a parent much thought. If anything, John felt that he was not mentally and emotionally equipped for being a parent, but trying to convey such a thing to Yukari was difficult at best. After what felt like forever, John looked back at Yukari with a rather troubled expression, almost as if he was having trouble speaking, and in truth, he was. He wanted to be completely honest with her, but he felt like she would not like the answer.
"Yukari, I don't think... I'm open to the idea, but... *sigh*", John said, sighing before looking back down at the cup in his hands. This time, John slowly rotated the cup in his hands as he tried once again to speak, this time staring down at the cup. It was too difficult to say what was on his mind and try to look at Yukari at the same time.
"Yukari, it's not that I wouldn't like to someday, but.. am I really qualified for it?", John finally asked, this time looking at Yukari. He still looked quite troubled by the question, but he seemed slightly more stone-faced.
When Yukari asked her question, it seemed almost as if John had not registered the question, but after half a second, a rather complex set of emotions seemed to spread across his face as he looked down at the small cup of coca in his hands, like confusion mixed with uncertainty, and not fear, but an emotion that seemed like apprehension. It was not entirely known how John felt about the question, and it seemed almost as if Yukari had asked him some extremely complicated question, like what the meaning of life was and that he was seriously thinking of an answer. John looked at Yukari with a rather thoughtful expression, but it seemed that his mind was still digesting her question.
"I...", John trailed before becoming silent for another moment. It looked like he wanted to say something to her, but that he couldn't find the words he wanted to say. In truth, it wasn't that he didn't want to have a child. He was open to the idea, but was he good enough to be a good father? John looked away for another moment as he struggled to find the right words to say, as he tried to process the emotions he currently felt. It felt so strange for him that he could not find anything to say, and he had never really even given being a parent much thought. If anything, John felt that he was not mentally and emotionally equipped for being a parent, but trying to convey such a thing to Yukari was difficult at best. After what felt like forever, John looked back at Yukari with a rather troubled expression, almost as if he was having trouble speaking, and in truth, he was. He wanted to be completely honest with her, but he felt like she would not like the answer.
"Yukari, I don't think... I'm open to the idea, but... *sigh*", John said, sighing before looking back down at the cup in his hands. This time, John slowly rotated the cup in his hands as he tried once again to speak, this time staring down at the cup. It was too difficult to say what was on his mind and try to look at Yukari at the same time.
"Yukari, it's not that I wouldn't like to someday, but.. am I really qualified for it?", John finally asked, this time looking at Yukari. He still looked quite troubled by the question, but he seemed slightly more stone-faced.
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